Fire Escape...to NYC

Fire Escape
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Lastnight I dreamt about you
I felt your skin on mine and melted
Your breath on the back of my neck
and your hips pressed hard into mine

I slowly bent my body and turned into you and stole your lips
I touched you lightly and gave you goosepimples

you shivered...

I wrapped my arms around you and rubbed you back to warmth
we stayed that way the rest of the night, not speaking
just watching each other in the pale moonlight
that poured through your fire escape window
tha same way that the sun did that morning...

Remember that morning...

the one where I took this picture.

Even the sound of the cars under your window
And the neighbours down the hall
can't disturb this moment we're sharing

Staring...

out the window, onto your fire escape.


See you soon baloo.

Love Phil

SET DATE!

OK,
So it has worked out that I'll be leaving on the 15th of September.

Evolving...

I wrote Eric a poem the other day....

here it is...


I'm speaking because I've got something to say
The words may not come out right, right away
But if you listen closely and you promise to pay,
Close attention I promise to not push you away.
I know only the parts of you that you show me
I pray that in time you will not outgrow me
I am pretty huge though, and seeing you down below me
Kind of raises my spirits and takes away 'lonely'
There will be times that I'll explain that it seems
The world is against me and I'll bulge at the seams
I'll give up on goals, plans, friendships and dreams,
Just because I drop the top off my ice-cream.
I might tell you you're wrong when I know you are right
I'll probably push a simple talk to an uncomfortable height
I'll expect you to raise bars when I plummet or plight
because I forget in the end what started the fight
I do love you baloo, of that I am certain
But right now I'm in pain and its no physical hurtin
I can't just dress the wound with a bandaid and polysporin
I've gotta clean whats beneath the physical skin
I want to be right for you
I want to be bright for you
I want to bring light to you
I don't want to fight with you
I just think that I might have to
Make a few drastic changes.

Recovering Horse Teeth...

So you may all remember a part of my winning 'Roadtrip' blog that mentioned Jason's 'horseteeth'

I must admit, I only used it to futher my ratings of the blog to achieve the goal of 'winning best roadtrip blog' I would like to resign my achievement and pass it on to

Kaila

who i believe deserves this recognition more, as per her fair judgement and lack of personal attacks on said roadtrip participants.
Furthermore, for the slanderous comments posted I would like to take a minute to explain myself...

the story of horse teeth...

When I was in highschool I dated a girl that I thought was gorgeous, absolutely beautiful, her name was and still is Shannon Bruni.
We would go to the river with our friends , have crazy house parties when her parents went out of town and I would take her home and have dinners with her and my family. Her mother was an alcholic, her stepdad was...well the truth is I don't remember, but something seeking empathetic/sypathetic characteristics. We dated for about 6 months, which in highschool is a long friggin time, and I was kind of a loser in highschool, yeah me, a loser!

I know hard to belive but true it is...
anyways it did not further my already depleting rate of popularity at my smalltown highschool to date this girl...people became rude and said I was dating a horse which was what they used to call her....because as an undeveloped teenager she had these HUGE teeth, they were beautiful, but they were a lil big on her, she hadn't grown into them yet. Our relationship suffered from all the scrutiny and eventually she dumped me...I was heartbroken of course.
But I learned from that relationship, and it has burned a place in my memory.

Present day...

Me being a HUGE Alanis Morissette fan I talk about her endlessly, to the point some have actually asked me to shut up. Including my best friend Dustin, yeah he's told me to shut up about a few things before, such as, "shut up you're not gay!" you should have seen the relieved look on my face when he reassured me of that!
Anyways, I'm floating off topic,



I LOve Alanis and People have always said that she has horse teeth as well, so I wonder, do I have a thing for people with big teeth?
This brings us to the Blog from our road trip, and the horseteeth comment...
I think what I should have said Jason, was that you have th most beautiful horseteeth I have ever seen and I am so jealous of them, and I think I'm in love with you...!!??

In closing, Jason please don't read any further...thank you...here use this picture of a crazy cowboy running from a transformer as distraction!

I'd like to reassure anika that this whole blog is fiction and only written to make Jason not mad at me....k? (oh Shannon Bruni really is my ex and she was called horse teeth, and my best friend Dustin did say that and of course I love Alanis......well its all true except that I think I'm in love with your BF...) So are we good?
Or will there be a fight to the death? Cuz I just finished my self defense class and got a C+....ITS ON GIRL!!!


In other news while googling for 'horseteeth' pictures these girls came up...

I think I'm in LOVE....dun....dun....dun

Roadtrip to Ani and Shari's

What makes a roadtrip...GREAT???



1) A group of 5 grumpy, grumbling, sleep deprived 20-odd year olds (thanks anika for the 7am wake up call!) piling into a 4 door 2000 something toyota corolla on a friday morning ....we later actually left the country around 12 noon.



2) Followed by a looong wait in line at the border while rude people (mainly americans) cut in front of us in line. (not all of them were going to the duty free Anika!) forcing Anika and I to walk to the duty free to buy ice-cream and water for everyone....but because we weren't yet through the border (how the bitch knew I still don't know) we could not purchase the ice-crean sandwiches only water...ugh!

Then to only get raped by the 'Border Guard' Lady or at least Jessica was because of her year book and birth certificate (explained on our CD at great length).a later picture represents the act of lack of ID on Jessica's part.


A trip to Tilaylup!!! SHOPPING!! noone really bought anything tho (we are such thrifty Canadians) except we got Anika a new nose ring cuz hers fell out 'somehow' in the night! mmhmmm




3) By being a trooper, Jason carried anika everywhere we went.....eventually he was so sore as a horse would be, we had to cool him off by getting him wet....just like you would a horse.....did I mention his teeth remind me of those of a horse?



HORSE TEETH! (haha jk jason...ur purdy!)



4)Sitting beside Kaila who friggin ROCKS!!!All the way there...(she didn't even complain when i shoved my ass in her waist to get comfy or anything...haha




5)Shopping at 'fred meyer' for munchies and booze and feeling like part of the mob cuz of our wad o cash!! (it was all singles) And to Taneka at fred meyer (phonetically: tan-ee-ka that I thought rhymed with anika if pronounced Ta-neck-ah) for her patience wih us Canadians!



6) Sleeping Beauty!!



7)Dave Matthews on the big screen when we walked into the music museum...yup pretty stoked on that!!!

8) Tower of Guitars!!!




8) Again the fountain was pretty damn cool, just stripping right there in front of all those strangers, talking Jason out of going in his unmentionables, and running down the steep bank and almost tripping on the ledge....AHHH REFRESHING!!


9)If I had any idea how to make this font HUGE and flashing I'd be doin that right now cuz this is the part where I'm introducing 'MY' highlight......

ANI -FUCKING- DIFRANCO!!!

To watch a recorded video of her speach we taped on feminism and Patriarchy from the concert link to myspace at www.myspace.com/sopureproductions under 'My Videos' look for Ani.


10)The most amazing hospitality of Shari - we can't thank you enuf for everything, you made this trip possible for us.....cuz sleeping in that little car would have killed us all....or at least we would have killed each other! We are planning without a doubt to tag along with you to Montana!! But we will see you in Sept first I hope!! You're such a doll and your girls are GORGEOUS, and sweet too!!
Hi Girls (Maya and Sophia) if you're reading this!


11)The 'Obseesive Compulsive Bee' and Target for making this the funnest last-minute birthday we could possibly do for Jason and the amazing construction of the "Purse" Piniata Target had, as well as the ever so suitable T-Shirt....I Heart Hot Moms!....how fitting, and the short shorts....Jason now you have short shorts....and you must wear them when we fight because then you can be Buried in them...Muahahaha!!

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Keep on Truckin'!!!

Synchronicities

ok so I am and have been for the last 5 months in love with a boy who lives on the other side on the continent (NYC)
my friend Ryan is going to NYC on tuesday and will be staying with him for a week, Jealousy is not a strong enuf emotion to describe the pain I feel that he'll be in the same room and in the company of the man I love for 7 whole days!!
However, since this plans inception Eric (my lover) has been calling me each and everyday to tell me how much he loves and misses me and we BS about ways to be together ASAP. So not all is bad...$5 phone cards are what is holding us together....Thank you 7-11 or whatever the equivalent is in USA.
Above and beyond that is this trip I'll be taking with the *Straight* version of Eric and I, Anika and Jason, has me EVER so exciteed amd will put me back in the US of A, (washington to be exact) where I can revel in the fact that I am that much closer to 'Him'
I strongly wish that there was no law, rule, distance, strict persistance that could stop us from loving and being together with each other, but much to my planning and dismay, there is!
so this is going to be a not to ensure that i will be taking all the steps to move MY ASS to NYC ASAP.

ERIC I LOVE YOU AND WILL BE WITH YOU SOON!!

...however I am drunk...and alone now....and must sleep to be pretty

to everyone...please do me this favour-

pray that we win the lottery and can pay our way to be together...hahaha

i just want to be with him...I love him!.....ugh....ok g'nite

Do I ever Have a funny Story 4 U!!

I am not in the circus...I am a super hero and here is my proof

NEWBIE

Ok, so this is my new blog, I'd like to thank everyone involved including, me, me, me and mostly me (unmentioned: Anika and Jason)

I've already got one blog but it sucked and i never used it, so this is like a rebirth.
And more fun I promise.

I'll be needing some help to post pictures etc. so the unmentioned ones can hopefully help me with that.

I'm BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!