Synchronicities

ok so I am and have been for the last 5 months in love with a boy who lives on the other side on the continent (NYC)
my friend Ryan is going to NYC on tuesday and will be staying with him for a week, Jealousy is not a strong enuf emotion to describe the pain I feel that he'll be in the same room and in the company of the man I love for 7 whole days!!
However, since this plans inception Eric (my lover) has been calling me each and everyday to tell me how much he loves and misses me and we BS about ways to be together ASAP. So not all is bad...$5 phone cards are what is holding us together....Thank you 7-11 or whatever the equivalent is in USA.
Above and beyond that is this trip I'll be taking with the *Straight* version of Eric and I, Anika and Jason, has me EVER so exciteed amd will put me back in the US of A, (washington to be exact) where I can revel in the fact that I am that much closer to 'Him'
I strongly wish that there was no law, rule, distance, strict persistance that could stop us from loving and being together with each other, but much to my planning and dismay, there is!
so this is going to be a not to ensure that i will be taking all the steps to move MY ASS to NYC ASAP.

ERIC I LOVE YOU AND WILL BE WITH YOU SOON!!

...however I am drunk...and alone now....and must sleep to be pretty

to everyone...please do me this favour-

pray that we win the lottery and can pay our way to be together...hahaha

i just want to be with him...I love him!.....ugh....ok g'nite