A good nights sleep

Ok so I'm moving to Kitchener tomorrow, Michael and I got a basement suite.

We actually can't move into our place till thursday, and because of the unfortunate attitudes of Mikes current roomates, tomorrow we're hangin with Joel and Po at the UW res building and crashing there. on the floor. so we can be together. even tho Mike has paid his rent for february where he lives. it amazes me that anyone see's this as anything other than bullying.

But I told Mike I'd stop getting worked up about it so heres to trying...

I'm really excited to live with Mike, he's clean, organized, a big eater like me, healthy, into working out, running (when the weather warms up), rollerblading, loves (and does)hair, loves clothes (which collectively we have unending amounts), which will fill our new...are you ready for it...

...WALK IN CLOSET!!

I've never lived with a bf before but I am looking forward to going to bed and waking up each night with him beside me. Making him meals and vice versa, Movies, Will & Grace (2 seasons to go), Simple life marathons, i can try to get into the OC and QAF, do his laundry but he won't do mine cuz he knows better, haha, I'll be there when he graduates from Voila, we'll be together on my birthday (woot!) so many positive things to look forward to.
But most of all...BREAKFAST!!...(anyone who knows me at all will get that)

Mike I just want you to know that although it is soon, I am really looking forward to us living together. I am crazy about you and we're going to have a great time.

People will always be there to throw sticks in the spokes of our wheel, and we'll both I'm sure learn a lot about each other, which I look forward to the most.
But above all the stress of our current situations...we're moving along fine, don't listen to anyone who says different.

Who cares anyways?
Did you notice that the snow is melting?
How much of a relief is that?
I am not worried.

goodnight


P.S.
I talked to Anika today...was wonderful...so heres to us!




P.P.S. I also talked to Maria, and she sent me the cutest pic eva...


2 of my favourite girls

Love and miss you all I hope you are all doing well!

Phil

Synchronicities

So Mike took me out for dinner lastnight to Kelseys...and as fate would have it we were seated under this giant picture on the wall...



fuck I love my life!

Just one of those days...

So I'm at Michael's apartment while he is at work/school, as I so often find myself, listening to an old fave Ani D song. When I realize how much I absolutely love this poem...take a read...learn something.


Coming Up

our father who art in a penthouse
sits in his 37th floor suite
and swivels to gaze down
at the city he made me in
he allows me to stand and
sollicit graffiti until
he needs the land I stand on
I in my darkened threshold
am pawing through my pockets
the receipts, the bus schedules
the matchbook phone numbers
the urgent napkin poems
all of which laundering has rendered
pulpy and strange
loose change and a key
ask me
go ahead, ask me if I care
I got the answer here
I wrote it down somewhere
I just gotta find it
I just gotta find it

somebody and their spraypaint got too close
somebody came on too heavy
now look at me made ugly
by the drooling letters
I was better off alone
ain't that the way it is
they don't know the first thing
but you don't know that
until they take the first swing
my fingers are red and swollen from the cold
I'm getting bold in my old age
so go ahead, try the door
it doesn't matter anymore
I know the weakhearted are strongwilled
and we are being kept alive
until we're killed
he's up there the ice
is clinking in his glass
I don't ask
I just empty my pockets and wait
it's not fate
it's just circumstance
I don't fool myself with romance
I just live
phone number to phone number
dusting them against my thighs
in the warmth of my pockets
which whisper history incessantly
asking me
where were you

I lower my eyes
wishing I could cry more
and care less,
yes it's true,
I was trying to love someone again,
I was caught caring,
bearing weight

but I love this city, this state
this country is too large
and whoever's in charge up there
had better take the elevator down
and put more than change in our cup
or else we
are coming
up

Then I remenisced on our roadtrip to Redmond, WA to see her....*sigh
(click on the links to see the vids and on the pics to enlarge)

Live at that concert, 'Half-Assed'

Also Live Ani's Dictionary Def's

So then I went and found all Ani's Evolutionary photo's:

Anika, Jay, Jacob, Julie, Stev, Bob, Mellissa, Cat, Janie, Luella, Sheri, Jenn in Calg, been missin you guys...hope you're all doing great!
see you in July!